she is really my closest

i have to wake up...i think ive changed...im not sure whether is alot or wat...but i feel it b4 anyone hint me...i tthink i should care more about my family...my mum..im her only son and ithink i really need to show more concern for her...i think she feels a distant bewteen us already...she said its my friends...i cant deny it but it not their fault...its my decision..i kind of confuse right now but i think i know what to do already...i will try to fufil her,more patience,listen to her...no matter what she is still my mum i will listen as long as u speak...i'll try for u are my mother..living healthily and youngXD..

lols....girls like leaving notes when they have difficuties?lols smt i really think that girls are the same..the alien creature on earth do have some things in common...lols...anyway i miss going out with bros...really missing it...the laughter the fun and our bonding..nothing is forever but i do hope the brotherness between us will nv end...i treasure i do..same goes to my family...im really living so comfortably...i shouldnt hate my father...he did take care of us...but thats it...many times i still think u are wrong...but still i shouldnt hate u....

my blog somehow became my reflection...i said the world is scary...and i thanks that i have my bros....they really did help me through my difficult stage of my life but i totally forgot sm1...the unconditional love..my mum........just say thank god or anyone...dun wan carry on night

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one day a farmer complained that God isnt fair a liar and unreasonable..he said God is than the devil whom lies through his eyes...then satan came out...he told the farmer to come to his side for he is the real god.God is the devil in disguise.The naive farmer thought the satan is really the true god and believed him as he nv seen the TRUE devil before..thinking that satan is the 1...when he went over to his side he was eternally burn to death...regretting his own stupidity..he nv realised that god helped him over the past years but only once god did not let rain fall..a lesson whhich is so painful...

whatever im ored and thinking of a story to tell lols...understand ma?>hahaha

why this blog title?

i create this blog for around 2yrs already..or maybe at least 1 and half yrs...i create this blog cause it seems a good place where i can improve my english and most importantly complains and share my feelings...well anyone thought of why i name it happy go lucky?haha...i think some ppl thought i am happy go lucky...if i seemed so,i succeed,lols.well seriously im not..but i want myself to be.seems to be happy all the time,no stress,no problems,not troubled by anything..what a life to lead...it seems only a baby can have that kind of life isnt it?



at least i think we do have good memories when we were very young..very very young...because of the adults i think we separate and become strangers..at least to me your reminds me when we were young back then..where our world is not interuppted by the adult world...



exams are coming and i think i haven really started...im feeling im going to fail...how sia...die....chamm...god give me strength...(and im not going to eat beef anymore...i will try cause im buddhist...i give u my respect)-
guess why im trying not to eat it anymore..

well on nian 30(the day b4cny),i need to spring cleaning our altar..the ancestors,guan yin and dua pek gong...and the sky altar..well i got to clean my ancestor altar and GUAN YIN altar...guess what i thought when i wipe the altar..."shit,i ate beef before...will my hand dirty the altar...it was crap and i ask for forgiveness and not to eat again lols...how can i ever let myself to eat it with a promise to my parents that i will not eat it...damn...and crap...feelign guilty now hahaha....

its cny...i just want to thank everything i have...i try to treasure every single thign i have and

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE